Chasing Normalcy

 

I debated on whether I would write a blog, simply because it would boring.

But I know so many of you care how I am doing.

Yesterday, today really good days. I do believe I have turned the corner and will look at brighter days ahead until, well, next treatment.

I suffered today in a search for normalcy.

Life has been weird, understandably

My friend Terri invited me to go out to lunch and I thought, you know what? Why not. I was feeling good.

I stepped on the scale today and I am down eight pounds since I started treatment. I was bound and determined I was going to eat.

Light food. Tasty.

I got a cocktail. It’s called a painkiller. I didn’t even see what was in it, I ordered it. Wow, was it good and I couldn’t even taste the booze, which is good because every booze I try burns. A 400 calorie drink with pineapple juice, OJ, cream of coconut and rum.

Yeah, awesome. I am going to try to make one at home.

I ordered pot stickers and an Ahi Tuna Salad.

Terri asked, “Should you be eating that Ahi tuna?” And I was like if I can eat it and it tastes good, yes.

Everything popped and tasted so good. Then I realized that everything I had was sweet. The pot stickers had a ginger dipping sauce and the salad had a banana ginger dressing. I ate what I could and filled up fast, but I did have some more when I got home.

Three hours … not sick. Yay me!

So I got my medical marijuana card and excitedly had my ‘consultation’ with the pharmacist and hurriedly went to the medical marijuana store. I didn’t know what to get.

I went in and expected something else. Instead I am greeted with a woman wearing scrubs and stepped into a waiting room that looked like an Urgent Care.

Carpenter’s Music played over the speakers.

Such a feelin's comin' over me. There is wonder in 'most ev'ry thing I see

How eerily surreal.

I thought wow this is really clinical, until I was called to the back to meet with the bud master, or bud tender and this girl looked more of a stoner than my son.

She helped me get some stuff. I still haven’t tried it. No reason, I’m feeling pretty good.

Sorry for the boring blog!