A friend reached out today to check on me because I haven’t been posting much on Facebook. She was the second person in two days to do that. Then I realized, wow I haven’t. Not because something is wrong but because as a writer, I just don’t want to bore you with the same information.
Oh, no, I am nauseous.
Wow, I feel great.
Damn it I am so hungry!
Those sort of things.
I’ve been dealing with treatment and wondering though, am I
getting used to the nausea or is it getting better?
I probably am just building up a tolerance.
I’m still freaking bald, well, I have peach fuzz that’s
white. I asked my daughter do I have a scalp condition or is that white peach
fuzz.
She said it’s very white peach fuzz.
Hey if it grows in enough to cover my head I’ll take it.
In the meantime I have been practicing my wig wearing for
the cooler temperatures.
I do get my scans on Friday and I am nervous. They call it
scanxiety for a reason. It causes anxiety. I want badly for the scans to be
stable or reduced but a part of me is scared. I have to keep my faith in God
and all those praying for me.
One thing positive …. Which is another reason I haven’t been
on much. I have been writing. The new book is almost done. I stopped writing
the one that was slacking and dragging and moved to one that motivates me to
finish. Plus, once I finish, I can get back to my Beginnings Series.
If I don’t write … I get bored so easily. I realized that
tonight. Not feeling well enough to cook, which I always loved to do and not
quite able to focus enough to work.
I’ll get there tonight and write some more. It’s been so
helpful mentally.
One thing I am going to do, that I never did before, is I am
going to do a kickstarter. A small one to do the cover for the new book. Being
that I have had very little income, paying for a professional cover hard. I’ll
do it, but I am hoping my kickstarter will work.
Hey, if Clive Barker can ask for 1.5 million, I can see if I
can get $500. If it works, great, if not, the book will still come out.
Another goal for myself that I need.
I appreciate everyone worrying about me.
I am glad I have that and the prayers!
