I wonder if Tuesday is the day I
will cry about it. I haven’t yet. The tears I have shed have been tears of
being touched by the outpour of love and support of others and the moments when
I think about how I am never going to be able to afford the care to get well.
Hopefully, I’ll get approved for the
supplement.
I don’t mean to be such a Debbie
Downer, I am trying to keep these blogs hopeful and light, but I want everyone
to know what I am feeling and going through.
Eventually I will do some video
reels.
I don’t know what Tuesday will
bring. I stopped checking my app to see if biopsy results are in. If they were
I am sure I would google and put myself in a state. I’ll let the doctor tell
me.
I am giving it to God to handle my fear
of finding out that there’s nothing they can do.
My friend, Katie assured me there
will be a plan of action. I pray that all the stories I hear about the
advancement of treatments are true.
I know I’m rambling and rattling my
emotions. I am sure these blogs will get more intense
Today was a good day. I mean it really
was. I worked at the church and it was candidate Sunday. Meaning they found a permanent
pastor and the mystery pastor came today to preach. This person was
invigorating and the energy in the church was amazing.
Again, a goal. the New Pastor starts in July and I am so excited to work with them. I love having goals.
So many people have been so kind offering help. I plan on taking people up on that. I really do, so if you offered don’t be surprised if I call.
As for now, at the time of penning
this … I need a nap!
FEELING TODAY: Worried but Good
MUSIC: Brave by Sara Bareilles
GOAL: Format the Broken Compilation
